today we submitted our smit project(the last one already) in Singapore Polytechnic,
4 more presentations & 4 more papers to my graduation(i hope!)
the week's been pretty relaxing, other than projs & everyone's mad rush for cny shopping.
but guess what i'm all alone at home today, w stuff i can do but am too lazy! so my bad.

cant wait to meet the girls for dinner tmr, at least there's sth to keep me occupied.
well, also helps to stop me from thinking too much yah?
need to meet g & v for cartel soon, but all busy w projs & training. damnnn.

the sun is so good today, i should have gone tanning. but my goggles broke, so i cant go swimming alr. ): wasted! but by the time i pack my stuff, i think the sun will about set. so i shall just go take a nap cos when u are hungry, u shld slp.

if its so hard to face the pain even after trying, its alright to run away.
but if you know its gna be so painful, why bother trying?



its already almost 2pm & J is still sprawled over my bed. what a lazy bum. ;/
anw, rm & asm finally completed & submitted ON TIME. (:
dont ever want to repeat the horrors of smit.
the whole week was home and projs and home and projs!
so finally got my good break on fri.

supposed to go to supperclub w g8 but in the end cancelled, so join J & mateys at dbl 0. which wasnt too bad i feel. we had a couple of drinks, the music was abit -- at first. but i think they close wayy to early! haha.

pictures from yesterday;



i want to be taller
i want to be prettier
i want to be more well-endowed
i want to be less paranoid
i want to be more confident
i want to be amazing
i want someone
who loves me for who i am and is truly satisfied with me,
who give me the the care and attention i need even though we meet out all the time,
who says sth and then make an effort to want to change it truthfully,
who make things happen and not just sit ard & wait for things to happen,
who will tell me he'll be there even when i feel like shit,
who offers his arm and shoulder to lean on even though we are in an argument.

am i asking too much?


i dont know why every now and then i have to go thr the same insecurities, the same worries, the same problems. is it cos they were never solved since the beginning or am i taking it the wrong way? its mentally stressing and i knw v frustrating for you too bt yet i am weak, i dont bear to end things. i dont dare should i say fits better. im afraid my world will crumble into pieces.

but am i not normal? do all these girls out there feel the same worries of their bfs? i can never rest my brain & my heart. im up thinking all the time & they are always negative thoughts. i just cant help thinking how would u go about making the comparisons with the million other girls out on the street, why am i not good enough? will i ever be good enough? you say you love me, but why dont i feel it? why do i feel i cant even match up to the strangers out there, like i am a stranger to you. i cant stand myself too, i hate it when i hv to feel like tt. who wouldnt wnt a pleasant day out? and i knw this will lead to the end one day. i know it will, its just when.

plus my knee's nt getting any better, ive got so many ugly bruises and my hand still burns as much as my heart when i come in contact w water.

can i just go and die?


djade came over on fri to do RM layout project, yes it was so unfruitful and it looks like primary school work. )): but we still had alot of fun, trying to use much of our creative right brains. haha. saying is so much easier than doing it actually. we started after asm interview at the airport, their well deserved popeyes, then worked our bum off till 12plus.

went cycling at ecp on sat w j & his mateys. haha. wanted to try blading but they plan to cycle all the way to changi which will be hard for beginner blading. sad to say, the day wasnt without injury, wp and i both suffered injuries. wp's one seemed worst cos whole right arm rubbed against some pole or sth which looked rather painful. walked over to parkway for dinner at pastamania. everyone ate like gluttons! haha. to kill time, and help digest our tummies, we topped up $25 for the arcade, i didnt play much though cos my hand was injured. ): they had alot of fun which mattered the most. after tt, headed to bedok for karaoke. omg, it was my virgin experience there and yep, took me awhile to warm up but everyone was nice, trying to choose a song i would knw & helping me out with the "chim-chim' chinese words. haha. i tried sth new!

i sang chinese songs! i can actually sing chinese songs. ((:



anw, outdated pictures of supperclub last sat.



yeap, i'm supposed to be doing projects. was home the whole day yet i didnt do anything. since 3pm! ;/ everything is in bits and pieces. so v unproductive! have been either browsing for clothes & bags or reading random people's blog, facebook photos.

the coming week must really put in my most effort already!

had dinner w val, gwen and jer on fri ard siglap. was great. we talked non-stop and first time meeting jer after her europe trip with her mozart chocs & magnets we told her to get. hahaha. many many good stories, and the whole drama of gwen. we actually talked till 12 mn! arent we an amazing bunch? hahaha.

sat was at supperclub but my camera's with val. long long story so will update when i get more camera back. hee ;D
& imma hungry again! grrr.


this whole week sucks ! all the returning of mst papers, project deadlines, lecturers adding fuel to fire(constant reminder that we're left with 5 weeks to grad?),sleeping for less than 3 hrs every night, arghhh.

talking about projects, we havent interviewed any airline for asm, need to redo for smit & rm is nowhere near halfway done. worst of all project submission is the following week. spend 2 nights working on my cover letter and resume, then realised only need 1 page! havent even started on portfolio even. sighs.

& even more bad news is i am ever more tempted to shop for clothes, bras, panties, heels, bags and eat (junk food, alot alot alot) due to stress. omg twister friezzzz ! ;/

I NEED SOME BOOOZE! ;D


xmas dinner at J's plan was a success on christmas day after all the date changing and stuff. the turkey was huge, that 5 people cant devour it. we also have honey baked ham. christmas is not christmas w/o ham ! ;) hee.

it was a messy dinner, all hands on, pulling of the meat, wrapping your own 'popiahs' and digging into salad. but i like it when you dont have to be conscious about ur looks and ettiquette. thats the fun! after that, they all got to try our super yummy logcake we baked ! ok, it wasnt that yummy, it just looked pretty. (: had presents xchange as well. we did it in open numbers way. slack around, watched some tv, surfed some fb and decided what to do next cos its friday & christmas day, no one wants to go home early. haha. initial plans was movie, karaoke, sheesha but guess what was the plan finally?



yep, dbl 0 which was soooooooooooo empty, and full of weird ppl. really ! hahaha. first time ive been to a club so empty that we had so much room to actually conduct activities. wasnt crowded at all ! drinks were cheap though so thats prolly the plus point why we were there. many more funny photos on fb, which i uploaded sooo bloody long ago. hahaha. ;D





oops, heehee. i still got so many stuff to update on 2009.

more photos on fb. (:

after tt, we went to get matching undies! hahhaa. story ends there.
met up with V and gang for ladiesnight since tree's back. theres a massive load of photos we took in just 3hrs! many in very awkward and weird angles as well. haha. many of us met many other people, i met june at arena, while sherrie & val also meet their friends. ohwell, its ladies night for a reason right? the queue was damnnn long though. ;/